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YOU ARE NOT ALONE. YOU MATTER. AND IT ALWAYS GETS BETTER. DON'T LEAVE THINGS UNTIL IT'S TOO LATE.
I never like making song subjects about my personal mental health and struggles, because I feel like I'm just venting to a bunch of people that don't care, but, there's something that I wanted to get off my chest about the state I've been in from the past 6 ish months. Things are getting better, dw about me.
I took excerpts from three suicide notes I written when I was 12, 15, and 19 respectively to write the lyrics from this; my rationale was because I didn't want this to be a big sadpost. I want people to know it's ok not to be ok. I didn't have a support network when writing lyrics for this song, the friends who I once had right by me at a moment's notice suddenly never checked on me, nor seemed to care about what was wrong with me when I was screaming for some form of consolation.
I wrote the lyrics as a poem to begin with; to help me take my mind off things that had screwed me royally by november last year, while having these dark intrusive thoughts about ending it all; I lost my closest friends, a partner who I'd have killed for that I still blame myself for the separation of to this day, I felt hopeless, unwanted, a burden, a waste of life.
This resulting, upcoming EP gave me some time to reflect and keep myself from acting on the urges that have plagued me since waaaay too young.
This song particularly was about realising I don't have it too bad, and I'm worth something, and so are you, who's listening to this.
If you see yourself out of a support group that never seemed to care about you, and never speak a word of you nor ever reach out again afterwards, they weren't your support group, they were wankers.
Just focus on you, find those who care and stick to them through everything, and don't give up.
The reason why I'm still alive is because of you, the listener, or the fan, or the crowd, or the con. Just. Thank you. I hope my message was clear, it's hard to talk about these things.
lyrics
"You are valued in this world, even when you think all is lost just remember; whe you hit rock bottom there is only one way you can go, which is up."
in the land of insecurity
self-hatred and deceit
I lay the bricks and build my home
for the land is all I need
I'm lost for any faith my dear
these words will be my last
will my legacy continue on
or will I fade to the past?
so take my hand for the final time
through the depth of great unknown
I will always miss your tender touch
but it's best that I should go
I tried my best and it's all for nothing
so when I go to sleep
don't wake me UP
don't let me BREATHE
no sacrifice is FOR THE WEAK
when the heavens slip my hooves
only then will I be free
it's not all grief and tears my friend
but I know it's only for the best
I have put all of my trust in you
that this is not the end
no, this is not the end
I scour the land in search of purpose
but every turn nothing seems worth it
and now I know I'm too far gone
(AND NOW I KNOW I'M TOO FAR GONE)
I was pushed away by the ones I loved
now I have no reason to live anymore
I'll stick a gun up to my head
and see how many give a shit then
so take my hand for the final time
through the depth of great unknown
I will always miss your tender touch
but it's best that I should go
I tried my best but it's all for nothing
so when I go to sleep
don't wake me UP
don't let me BREATHE
just stay the FUCK AWAY FROM ME
my hooves are shaking writing this
but soon enough I'll be set free
it's not all grief and tears my friend
I really think it's for the best
I have put all of my trust in you
that this is not the end
No, This not the end
This not the end
oh
I hope this was worth it
four great years down the drain like that
all those twists and turns just to be stabbed in the back
but fuck you all cause I rose above
now I travel the world doing what I love
if only you could see the state you left me in
but SUCK MY DICK cause in the end I win
where I'm at right now is the best I could be
cause there truly is no-one like me
I hope I get see you dead
cause screwed me over quicker than you came
did anyone really care?
well I hope it was worth it
cause this is not the end
oh
this is a letter
to my worst friends
and best enemies
this is a letter
to my worst friends
to my worst friends...
(no, don't wake me) UP
don't let me BREATHE
no sacrifice is FOR THE WEAK
so when the heavens slip my hooves
only then will I be free
it's not all grief and tears my friend
but I know it's only for the best
I have put all of my trust in you
that this is not the end
don't wake me UP
just let me BLEED
people like me are FUCKING DISEASE
my wrists are bleeding writing this
the tears are mixing with the ink
it's only grief and tears my friend
is this really for the best?
I've lost all of my trust in you
and this is the end
I hope this was fucking worth it
credits
released June 19, 2023
music and lyrics by Biscuit
orchestration by Nugget
I'm biscuit, and I'm a recording brony/furry artist based in the UK!
I've been a Semi-
pro session drummer for about 4 years, playing guitar for about 11, specialising in Rock and Metal, particularly in core, death metal and alt metal. Currently learning the ropes of independent production, and looking to get through in the furry and brony music communities.
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